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when were you going to realize you’re stuck in a past self’s disguise all my life spent sharing quiet words and shakes look through all your past lives' mistakes cant you see this life’s too good too bad for me all i want is to live through the hell ive wrought so let me fall when were you going to make a change when will this all go away you know it cant someday you’ll have to learn to live someday you’ll know you cant quit cant you see this life’s too good too bad for me all i want is to live through the hell ive wrought so let me fall i want to go somewhere far away where i can fall into the grass and bind the scars where the sky’s a different shade and my feet touch the ground and i feel so at home my heart feels so at home i know i will go so far but i know my life is visible but question marks make up margins and every corner of my mind facing truth and change i know i want to reach this place and i will i know that i will my heart knows that i will i know i will go so far but i know my life is visible but let me fall, ill be fine let me fall, ill be fine this life's too good too bad for me mirrors blurred not for long

there is no humanity in this place there are only beings of unflinching will and strength committed to themselves and each other speaking different languages and all meaning the same thing secretly wishing their strength was unneeded all bearing witness to the changing unending tides can you see it? the rivers cut through everything here their water is special but not to anyone on the inside of the walls here the water breathes life in these drifters these beings who are blissfully lost everyone here is destined to sink for breathing underwater is what we all dream to do but how is it even possible? when the water is so cold its like a javelin through my back it pins me to the ground it eats my breath it kicks at my knees and screams in my ears it slithers down my neck and into my chest i dont know why but im still drawn to it the water is so cold and yet i find myself at the edge of a river encouraged by patient peers the time will come where i will be submerged in its waters i will not drown i will not crack apart i will flow baptized and reborn embracing my inhumanity

i see the signs im tearing through my life so blissfully i feel the bars im shredding through the stars so blissfully i need to run forever i need to carve my name in every tree ever cause i need to let them know im… maybe i wont cut my hair to be a stranger at a glance no more being a ghost they will know just who i am maybe they wont like what they see but do i even really care maybe this is all the shit i need to go through to nowhere i am myself im digging up the lost time your here to cut away blight we struggle with the earthquakes will we forget how to pray? youre always there when i change everything youre know to love when i change everything its never really goodbye its never really not night i learned to love the darkness you help me through all this youre always there when i change everything youre know to love when i change everything i was so scared of changing everything but am i really changing everything? oh no time to think on personal wealth they’d rather see me dead than see me myself can you hear what im saying? oh no need to cry with the people by my side hope you hear what i am saying... i need to feel the present and i need to carve my path in every home forever i need to show the world im... i wont feel bad forever i know there are brighter days and people who make me feel better and i love that they all know im...

poison’s deep the cure is hard hard to find! empty shell filled with life at one single touch fabric, soft cutting gently through my skin just one shot holy bullets digging through my world of sin take my soul never thought i had one anyway was left to rot in the cage twisting fire rendering these hollow bones (out of) reality fades away but your place still feels like home to me even then if im gone will i learn how to be loving to whatever stays will mirrors chant my name will you pray for me soon will i learn how to love you i love you i love me im hunted im hunting is there a way to save face? a hurricane blows down the walls is my voice far too frayed am i the one who must come out to play after years of breathing smoke you’re seeing right through me the moon is flickering reflected off cold teeth the bite marks on my skin draining blood and nothingness the symptoms you cried to were always a part of me but you dont know what is hiding in these bones (i live for this) so i’d better go find a place i belong (and be hunted) the rain is pouring through the cracks in the ceiling the water pulls me down but i am still breathing? the pavement is drenched in chalk drawings and broken dreams the downpour’s relentless it washes away everything so live through the sting or ill die panicking (i live for this) must wake with a start sinking deep in the dark (and be hunted) ive slipped away from the chains cold is a feeling so is the pain i didnt fold but truthfully told id rather be safe than brave do you think you can ever be understood? do you think theres comfort in what you took? does that have to be decided by the cards? can’t we be whatever we thought we are? i drift down to the bottom of the sea seeking shelter in someones arms i sense your body’s meshed with the dark i wish you could take me in your fold make my blood turn freezing cold and tear my soul out through my eyes a new worlds stretches ahead i need to make myself i need to make a home dont think about the end like you always have just think about the time that has been left i know one day you wont be so tired i know that day is now

the meadows are quiet as blades of grass cut through a gentle corpse fallen in the glade the stars and swords lodged in their chest rust from the venom fall away i know its not hopeless to wake up every day i know its hard to hunt but you were gonna fall anyway i know this road will swiftly cut me down (you knew this, didn't you?) branches stretch like mandibles i know i have the strength to resurrect (you knew this, didn't you?) to live to die to become again mirrors mouth the words "i love you, i promise (you knew this, didn't you?) we wont allow the suffering (gnawing) to go on" "its for the best for both of us its the best for those you love (you knew this, didn't you?) to show them who you truly are" cause ends are beginnings to love is to fall set me free oh! i can run forever i wont live off faded joy i will sew the flowers so you all know that i am living in the moment taking time to breathe in telling friends i love them cause they love that i am if you fall youll be fine if you fall i will love you this path will not be easy i know this but its the path i forge so i must smile i wont bite down on this fucking pain anymore i will walk to my future and i will rise!!!